I’m back. I think.

I’m back. I think.

Heyy everyone

So tomorrow, would have marked a month since I’d last posted anything. I’m truly sorry for not posting anything for so long but I really couldn’t bring myself to write anything except sad, moody poetry.

A month away from blogging felt like a lot longer than 30 days. And it gave me a lot of time to think, think about myself as an individual and the direction I want Seventeen Wishes to be going in. I didn’t come up with any solutions just a lot of new songs, poetry and mixed emotions.

So I decided to ask you. All of you. What you think, as well as what you like and don’t like about Seventeen Wishes. The things you would like to see more of and the things you don’t enjoy as much.

xxxChips

I don’t care what your mind says

You deserve to be happy

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FROM THE ROOTS UP 🌪

FROM THE ROOTS UP 🌪

Nebulous/adj.1.in the form of a cloud or haze;hazy. 2 (of a concept or idea) vague or ill-defined.3. Astronomy relating to a nebula or nebulae.

Derivatives :nebulosity,nebulously;nebulae


I want this blog to be raw.A space,that isn’t, filtered. And in saying this,I write this post for me.And I write it because for me blogging is the therapy 5 days out 7.

Everything feels weirdly spacey, like my brain’s turned into mush but my thoughts are swirling around my head;orbiting around this planet my psychologist is only beginning to understand.

It all feels so hazy. It’s like swimming in a pool with fog surrounding you,and you feel extremely disoriented and you’re trying to push through and get to the other side but it’s so extensive that you don’t even know which way you’re going and whether or not it’s the right way.

Several things have happened lately that I want to share with you. Firstly after years of me knowing it :I was diagnosed with depression and a severe mood lability.

Honestly I’m not even freaked out about it, at first I felt relieved,because let me tell you that there is no better feeling than knowing that what you are going through has a name and you’re not going insane.Because that’s literally what it felt like.The funny thing is that I figured this in grade 3;the depression part,not the other thing, and nobody believed me.And honestly I don’t know how a 9 year old figured it out but I did and I did tell someone but they were so condescending and skeptical about it,that I just didn’t talk about it with people. Maybe that has something to do with me having trust issues or the fact that I have trouble expressing myself if it’s not on WordPress,in my journal or in the note section of my phone,I forget where I was going with that-It’s been happening a lot lately.

And then the part that I had felt so certain about in the beginning:high school,my future and everything else that comes with that. All of it, mapped. All summed up in my head,with the most intricate of details;gone. That imperfect future;the one with flaws that was still every bit as magical with all the flaws;the one my mind weaved up and conjured into this living,breathing idea isn’t what I thought it would be like.

So for now the music takes me, takes me back to when things weren’t so fuzzy and messed up and my plans were still perfect.

I’ve also been messing up a lot lately,simple actions that even a 5 year old could perform well are beginning to seem like rocket science to me. I just feel like I’m in this big bubble and I’m floating and I’m here but my mind is just so scattered and so full of everything and nothing that it feels like my head is going to burst open and leave all my thoughts on the floor like confetti for everyone to see.

We reached 200 followers and there are people who I want to acknowledge and thank for that specifically but I’ve set the wrong mood and it wouldn’t make sense to do it now,so that post is coming. I hope it makes you smile,because all of you make me so happy and I’m ever so grateful for all of you

But for now, to quote The Perks of Being a Wallflower, I want you to know that I am both happy and sad. And I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.

xxxChips❤️❤️

GIRLBOSS//GUYBOSS MARCH

GIRLBOSS//GUYBOSS MARCH

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU🎵HAPPY BITRHDAY TO YOU🎵HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR CHLOEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO YOU🎵

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PS:Sorry this is so late.

Who else missed GIRLBOSS//GUYBOSS❤ As we all know(I think😂) every month (and I say every very lightly😂) I do a post called Girlboss/Guyboss.

Be sure to check out December’s Girlboss:She’s a friend of mine and a GIF extraordinare😉RACHEL VINCENT💜💜

Now let’s get into this post😄It’s March and we all know what that means:thinking back on the importance of scheduling your posts😂

This is the first Girlboss/Guyboss post of the year and it deserves someone incredibly special and extraordinary which is why February’s Girlboss is none other than CHLOE from Midnight Wanderer

So I’ve been binge-reading Chloe’s posts for a while and stalking looking at her Instagram😄And she writes LIKE YOU CANNOT IMAGINE, like,she was one of the first bloggers I followed and this was when my blog was just starting out and I look up to her so much❤But that’s enough of my endless chatter, here’s the stuff you actually want:

1.If you could jump into a pool of something what would it be?

sdokpkNDBHSDISIIJSOJSDODJODJDIDHUDDUDUDGYDYYYSYGSUSIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIaThis is an interesting one, the first thing that came into my head was a pool of glitter – because who doesn’t love that? Not sure how I’d feel about trying to get it all out of my hair afterwards though! I’d probably be a bit sparkly for a few days afterwards…

2.What inspired you to start blogging?

I was never really into the whole blogger community thing so there was never a specific person I looked at and thought wow, I want to start a blog because of them. I was more inspired by writers and people like Tia Henricks, Em Mercury etc. to create a platform where I could share my thoughts, feelings and interact with other like-minded people. So I’d say those were the people who inspired me to blog. In terms of what inspired me to blog, I wanted somewhere to share my thoughts, feelings and hopefully inspire and be inspired, I had a lot of things to say but nowhere to say it – there were a lot of stories I wanted to tell, a lot of memories I wanted to share and a lot of magic I wanted to create. I wanted to make something that I could share with others and show people like, look at what I did! I wanted to start something new and to start something for myself so, here I am.

3.What is the dumbest way you’ve been injured (try to top walking into a wall😂)? Honestly I’m probably the clumsiest person out there (I was walking backwards down a hill talking to some friends and fell straight into a dustbin once), but there are 2 things that came into mind when I read this question (thankfully they’re not recent events and only happened when I was younger) though I’m only going to mention one since the other is literally so bad, but basically I fell off the top of a slide and literally the whole of the left side of my face grazed off…meaning I was walking around for weeks where half of my face was just one big giant scab. Never have I wanted to walk round with a paper bag over my head so much.

4.What is something people would never guess about you?

Hmmm, maybe that I have a few tattoos & I’m basically obsessed with them & planning to get a load more?? I don’t look like your typical person who would have tattoos and people always seem a little surprised when they see them on me, so maybe that!

5.Finish the sentence: When I grow up I want to be_____________

HAPPY. Cliche I know, but if I’m happy then literally nothing else matters – I want to be free.

6.Who is your spirit animal?

Oh wow, the amount of times I’ve said this and suddenly I can’t think of a single person hahaha. If we’re talking about people then probably Chrissy Teigen, if we’re talking about actual animals then a sloth (or the dog with a blog – seems kinda fitting)…

7.Stranger Things or 13 Reasons Why??

Stranger Things forever!! It’s literally my favourite TV show in the world, those kids are just my favourite people on Earth I swear. As for 13 Reasons Why, I literally can’t stand it and think it’s the worst thing to have ever been aired on TV – I’m not even sure how it got to that stage!!

8.What are 5 things you couldn’t live without?

My dog My blog (ha)

My journal

My phone (to talk to everyone)

and my car, else I wouldn’t be able to get anywhere!

9.What is your biggest fear?

Watching someone I love slowly lose interest in me.

10.Would you rather have unlimited Tacos for life or unlimited Sushi for life😂?

I actually don’t like sushi and I’m not that much of a fan of tacos either, but I’ll have to go with the latter on this one!

11.Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

I’ll be 30 in 10 years (jeez) so my biggest goal is to have started a family by then – I literally can’t wait to be a Mum.

11.If one animal was made the size of an elephant which would be the scariest😥😥
😥 Some kind of insect because those things are literally the creepiest in minuscule size, let alone elephant size! I feel like a crab would be terrifying since some photos came out recently of literal killer crabs and they were HUGE. Honestly the freakiest things ever.
12.What would be the worst movie sequel ever made😂😂?
Can I say a sequel to 13 Reasons Why?

13.What cheesy song do you know by heart🎤 Ooh, I know lots! Probably anything S Club, though I’m definitely not afraid to admit I still love them!

14.Whats a weird but delicious food combination you’re obsessed with

Cucumber on toast…weird, I know.

15.This one has to do with food as well because… you know, FOOD ! What would be the worst ingredient to fill a burrito with?
Either fish or mushrooms – or both!! I literally couldn’t think of anything worse.

Firstly, I’d like to thank Chloe for doing this because legit, this wouldn’t have been possible without her.And then I’d like to thank Brad Pitt and Christian Bale, guys without you, none of this would’ve been possible😢JUST KIDDING!😂😂

Don’t forget to head over to Chloe’s blog for all her amazing content 💜💜

“Do something amazing”

xxxChips

MENTAL HEALTH

MENTAL HEALTH

So I’ve haven’t written about Mental Health much and I haven’t shared my story with you guys and that is something that will happen eventually and it is a mess of a story, but right now that’s not important. This post is not about my depression/anxiety/bipolar story, this post is about everything happening now, in the moment, in my maze of a mind.

So for those of you who don’t know I recently started boarding school, and we weren’t allowed our phones/laptops for the first few weeks of it so I apologise for my absence.

I hate it full stop

I don’t fit in. In the two brief weeks I’ve been there I’ve made some amazing friends and I’ve figured out who the fake ones are.The thing is… I’m not happy. I can’t focus in class, I don’t like the extra-murals, I don’t like the people(of course in saying this I mean some of the people, most, of the people).And the truth is, there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I feel trapped. So trapped that I’m going to see a doctor sometime within the next few weeks for an evaluation.

I  can’t even blog at boarding school, do you realise that? Blogging is what helps with my depression, my anxiety and still when I write about something as simple as whether or not I’m A Feminist  people (my family)start the conversation about whether or not the content on this blog is too ‘mature’ for me when these are things they have a) discussed with me and b) things I will share regardless. I started this blog for me. I started it and it gave me a  space where I could voice my opinion and hear the opinions of others, I haven’t received a single rude comment since I started and obviously not all bloggers are that lucky. But the truth is when I start writing about my mental health story people are going to judge me, regardless of whether or not the responses are positive or negative, I’m being judged. It makes sense that because I’m so young and there are pictures of me on this blog that people wouldn’t want me to write about a topic that could impact my future so ‘majorly’.

I am not a genius so I can’t say that I won’t regret writing about my mental health story 20 years from now, but I don’t think I will and writing about my story and sharing it with other people is something I need to do.For myself. And it is really, really important to me that people understand that what they are going through, isn’t something they are going through alone.

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DO NOT MISTAKE THE GLINT IN MY EYES FOR SPARKS. I AM THE WHOLE DAMN FIRE-C.R.L

FLASH || POETRY

FLASH || POETRY

I’ve been raving about sharing some of my poetry on this blog so I’m going to start with this one.

Flash

That’s what it what is was

A day a year a moment we shared

Heartbreak and falling in love

Anxiety, depression, late night confessions

But it had to change

It always does

We loved until there was no love

Meant to be that’s what I thought

-but

No

A thousand stars and planets

I close my eyes and wait

For something

To take me back to when I was happy and my biggest worry was my next post

But what hurt the most wasn’t the knife across my throat

It was the thought of you not loving me

But wait-

No

What we had was gone in a flash

C.R.L

MY BLOGGING ESSENTIALS|BLOGGING TOOLBOX

MY BLOGGING ESSENTIALS|BLOGGING TOOLBOX

Heyy

So this is a very interesting post for me as I’ve never gone into much detail about how exactly I blog.There might possibly be a post about that later-this is not it.Today’s post is about all my MUST-HAVES when it comes to blogging. I came across a post like this when I was still very new to the blogosphere and it saved me!!!

It didn’t however teach me that it’s gramatically incorrect to put three exclamation at the end of a sentence😂

These are the things I live by they saved me and hopefully they’ll save you too

TECH

LAPTOP

So I have the HP 250 G5 Notebook and I adore this baby with all my heart! So I type all my posts onto my laptop and then add images and emoji’s on my phone. I would love to get a Mac someday, but for now my HP is perfect for blogging,planning and school.

PHONE
This is is probably one of the most important things I own.90% of all my blogging apps are on here  and I would probably get a lot more done if it wasn’t constantly in need of charging😂. I have the iPhone 6 in silver and honestly I love the camera on it so much,it’s just as good as my camera.And I just love the fact that I could manage my entire blog from my phone if I wanted to!

CAMERA For any newbies (lol, who am I to talk?) I just want to make it very clear that you do not need a fancy, expensive camera to take amazing photos. To be fair I only started taking photos recently, but a phone, like I said above, is just as good as a camera. For any of you wondering, I have the Canon Powershot SX60 HS, it’s quite fancy for a beginner but I got it at a great price and even after four days my photography has improved majorly!

GRAPHICS AND STOCK IMAGES

CANVA

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So before I figured out that there were apps and websites that could make graphics I was lost. And then I heard of Canva, and my life changed forever. Seriously, I use Canva for EVERYTHING. It even has a template for Instagram stories:#LIFE

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PINTEREST

I’ve been using Pinterest since 2013, I am just as madly in love with it now as I was back then. I use it to find inspiration and market my own posts, you can find literally ANYTHING on here!

PIXABAY|PEXELS|UNSPLASH

These are my go-to websites for stock images. These websites have extremely high quality photos and they’re free, so what’s not to love?

GIPHY

Ahhh, the world of GIFS *smiles longingly into the distance*

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Organisation

GOOGLE

Google has saved my life more times than I can count. From Urban Dictionary to Power Thesaurus to googling different things until my blog came up.Honestly so useful if I don’t understand words, or if I’m feeling pretentious and wanna use big words.

GMAIL

My Gmail is the biggest mess ever! Which is why I decided to get an organising app for my email so I use Polymail as well. And as soon as I see emails flying in I scroll through them and delete all the ones that don’t interest me or anything I know I won’t read. Recently though, I’ve started making folders just because I feel like that’ll  help sort out the mountain of emails I keep getting sent.

EVERNOTE

There was a point in my life where I would use Evernote everyday,but I don’t really use it anymore and just keep it around because it has a few blog post ideas and other bits and bobs that are important and are things I can’t be bothered to move. This app is amazing if you want to organise your life, there’s a voice note feature so you can even record your thoughts and ideas on-the-go.You can doodle and make to-do lists, add images and attachments: it really is the best organising app out there!

A PLANNER

Over the past few years I’ve bought countless planners, and notebooks in an attempt to be more organised. I used some of them for a few weeks before I got bored or I stopped because I missed a few months and hated seeing the many blank spaces in my planners. If there’s one thing I’ve learnt it’s that when you decide to use a planner, the most important thing is your system.

So my system focuses on reminding me of my goals and making sure I know that the tasks I see as pointless, are actually going to get me closer to achieving them.

**PS: For everyone who wanted to see a ‘How I organise my planner’ post, I’m waiting until school starts to write that because since I’m on holiday there’s not much I really need to do.

POWERPOINT

So I started using Powerpoint about a week ago to help me plan out all my blog posts and figure out  when I want to post. I literally just made a calendar and filled in blog posts I want to do and I feel like having it on Powerpoint is so much better than having it on Google Calendar (but that might just be my opinion because my life used to revolve around Google Calendar until I started hating it).

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APPS

AFTERLIGHT

Without a doubt this is my favourite editing app ever!MY LITERAL BAE! I use this to edit my blog and Instagram and the Dusty filter has changed me in ways I cannot even begin to explain.🙌

TWITTER

I.DON’T.UNDERSTAND.WHY.PEOPLE.DON’T.USE.TWITTER.

So I joined Twitter sometime last year, it’s probably one of my favourite apps next to Instagram or Pinterest! This is where I ask about the type of posts you’d like to see and share all my posts but it’s also a lot more insightful about my life than any of my Insta Stories, like you can tell exactly how I’m feeling just by looking at the type of posts I’ve been liking recently,overall this is probably one of the most used apps on my phone and my absolute favourite.

INSTAGRAM

So I have two Instagram accounts:

One for my blog

One for me

Either way, I spend a LOT more time on here than I should.

PLANOLY

This app has honestly, changed my Instagram for the better. I can visually plan,schedule or draft any photos I want to upload PLUS I can manage my stories as well! Honestly, this app is just so amazing!

BLOGLOVIN’

This app has brought in so many new followers, shoutout to my Bloglovin’ Babes  ✌🏽. I don’t use the app as  much as I should but I have been starting to use it a lot more in the past few weeks and I’m seeing a huge diference!

WORDPRESS

This one is pretty obvious, for those of you who don’t know I blog on WordPress. I tried out Wix for a bit but I wasn’t liking it and I decided to switch back. Honestly I don’t think there’s a better blogging platform out there than WordPress. All in all it’s up to you but I would DEFINITELY RECOMMEND WordPress.

INSTASIZE

This is yet another app I use for my photos, I don’t really use the app for anything over than to give my posts a white background but there are some really cool features I’ve been meaning to use. The only downside I can think of is the ads that constantly pop up because I don’t have Instasize Premium, other than that it’s a great app

WE HEART IT

If Pinterest had a baby it would be We Heart It😂. It’s my inspiration go to and (kinda random) but it’s the reason I’m learning Spanish. And you probably don’t care about that but We Heart It is phenomenal so you guys should definitely check it out if you haven’t already.

So I know this post was kinda long, but I hope this helped any new bloggers or just anyone in general. I love you guys so so much and you mean the world to me❤️

xxxChips

No impidas que se vaya pero haz que se arrepienta

GIRLBOSS PLAYLIST 2018|GRL POWER

GIRLBOSS PLAYLIST 2018|GRL POWER

Heyyy

So in case you haven’t noticed yet I luurrvvee music. Some of the songs on this playlist are quite old but that’s never stopped me from dancing wildly to them, lol, who even am I? Anyway without further ado:

GIRLBOSS PLAYLIST 2018

  • National Anthem-Lana Del Rey
  • You Don’t Own Me-Grace
  • Woman- Kesha
  • Say It To My Face-Madison Beer
  • New Rules- Dua Lipa
  • Don’t Play- Halsey
  • Do My Thang-Miley Cyrus
  • Feelings- Hayley Kiyoko
  • O.D.D- Hey Violet
  • Work- Iggy Azalea
  • Secret(Shh)- Charli XCX (Honestly not sure if this song fits the theme but it makes me feel badass so we’re putting it here anyway)
  • Needed Me- Rihanna
  • Dead- Madison Beer
  • Nasty Gal- Betty Davis
  • Hard Out Here- Lily Allen
  • You Already Know-Fergie
  • Sorry Not Sorry-Demi Lovato
  • BO$$-Fifth Harmony
  • Pretty Girls-Britney Spears
  • Bad Girls-M.I.A
  • Ready For It-Taylor Swift
  • Blow-Kesha
  • Potential Breakup Song-Aly and AJ
  • My Rules-Jadagrace

Music is what feelings sound like

xxxChips